3 Random Facts

1. Eve's gonna have a greeeeat time!!!

2. I want to go to New York.

3. My throat still hurts, a lot!

@Lara
Yeah, I know. I'm actually even really exciting and looking forward to my apartment, it's just that I don't wanna be away from my cats. And nope, no roommates, thank god. I have my own apartment, I wouldn't have wanted it any other way. I just really need my own space and my own bathroom and kitchen.

@Eve
Guess we won't be talking on msn anymore before you leave, so I hope you'll have a safe trip and of course a great time in NY with your friend!! But no doubt about that! Oh and take lots of photos again, but I'm sure you will!

1. Gonna watch Bones in a few
2. And finally gonna have Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey again then
3. And tomorrow I'm finally gonna continue writing my book!!

1. I've got Louboutins!!!
2. 2 pairs!!!
3. My hbbie is the best hubbie ever!!!

@Danny Boy - Yeah, I totally understand. Sometimes you just need your own space! You're moving so soon! Who's gonna watch your cats?

1. The Pumpkin Smash smoothie from Jamba Juice is quite delicious.
2. My new caregiver Jessica is hilarious and we fangirl over TV when she comes over! I don't know how she gets me ready in the mornings cuz we can't stop talking!
3. Have a cold (blech!!), but I still have a lot of homework and internship work to do this weekend! Despite all this, I can't stop thinking about TV premiere week next week where most of my fav shows (besides Parenthood and Army Wives) are coming back.

Get better soon, sweetie!!!

1. Soooo tired.

2. We went to Porto (Portugal) for the weekend

3. The city is amazing!!

1. New York was soooo awesome!!
2. I really didn't want to leave!
3. Stupid jetlag... Been awake for almost 30 hours now :/ (well okay I just napped for 1 hour, but I want more sleeeeeeep)

@Lara
Yep yep, moving really soon! Just one more week! *excited* And my parents are gonna watch my cats, well they're actually our cats and not my cats anyways so. At least I can still see my little cuties on the weekend and during vacation...definitely not gonna be enough though.

@Eve
Glad to hear that you had such a great time! Can't wait to see some photos.

1. Had a nice time in Flensburg and already made some...well I guess you could already call them friends so. Didn't see that coming at all since I'm actually totally socially awkward and it's always been hard for me to make friends in real life and figured it would take me ages again to make friends no matter how hard I tried, but I didn't even have to try hard, I just tried to finally be more open and talkative and the rest just happened automatically.
2. Even went out with them Thursday night and had a drink (was my idea even! ) and had a really nice time...even though I still tend to feel a little out of place sometimes, but oh well...that's just who I am. But hopefully it's gonna get better...although I think it has a lot to do with my gayness...I hate not being able to be entirely myself sometimes...but duuuhhh I really don't want them to know I'm gay (at least not just yet) it would just complicate everything...
3. Especially since I think I'm developing a crush on one of them...grrrrrr!! No big surprise, I know...it's so typical for me...but I really don't want that!! I hate it, it's so annoying... He's even living in the same building I'm gonna move into, but I kinda like that actually (no surprise again...obviously). But yeah, I really get along well with him. Well with the others too, but with him most I think. But I keep telling myself that this stupid crush is surely gonna pass soon...it's always like that with me...so it better just be like this again...grrrr!!

Okay those are some really long 3 random facts, but I just needed ot get that out of my system.

1. I failed my practical exam

2. It wasn't my fault

3. I'm taking some pills that make me feel bad and tired, so i can't sleep well at night and i feel even more tired. And 20 days of pills ahead!!

@ Di: Sorry you failed your test..

1. It's soooo cold (and rainy), miss NY even more now!
2. Sitting near the fire with a glass of wine and some music isn't too bad now, though
3. Classes are starting again tomorrow, but my class on Tuesdays doesn't start until next week. . And Thursday all classes are cancelled cuz of the Academic opening (some party and stuff), not too bad for a first week, huh . I only need to go Wednesday, lol.

@Di
Oh noo...sorry to hear that, that really sucks. Welcome to the club...

@Eve
Haha, cool! Same here, didn't really have that many classes the first week either and still not really that many now during my second week.

1. I was in my apartment earlier and it looks great!!
2. Gonna go back later to check with the janitor when I can move in!
3. But since there's not really much work left for him to do, hopefully I'll get the keys tomorrow or even later but I doubt it.

1. Now i now why i misread about Dan's crush, I understood something totally different as i was in a rush!! Sorry!!
Is he hot? Hot+nice, great combination And if you're gonna live in the same building, that can be great (you can stalk him better ) but i would be so jealous all the time!! And unable to concentrate....

2. Yesterday Spain was on strike

3. Strikers burned an old home infront of me when i was taking my driving lesson!!

1. Crappy crappy crappy day and it's just getting shittier as it goes on
2. Lots of students are at the opening student festival right now, of course I'm not
3. Gonna look for a movie now, that I need to see in preparation for my Film Analysis class... (and of course I can't find it online, since it's from 1986 )

Sorry for your day, Eve! Huge hug for you!

1. My office hours changed today to the winter schedule: will work the noons, but way less hours in the morning.

2. I am getting soooo pissed off lately on my driving lessons.

3. Some people in twitter/facebook is getting pretty annoying....

@Di
LOL Well, he's not really hot, but also not bad looking of course...kinda average I guess...but of course since I have a crush on him he's a bit more than average to me. But the first time I saw him he was just kinda average to me. BUT omg he's got theee most adorable smile ever!!! *melts* And yep, living in the same building is great and I'm already taking advantage of stalking him... But tell me about...I'm already jealous sometimes for the most stupid reasons ever...and thanks to him I'm not able to concentrate on anything else since days... I just can't stop thinking about him, it's driving me insane!!! Sooo not fair!!! I swear I just wanna hug and kiss him and sometimes I'm really almost about to do so, damnit!!! I can hardly control myself........ And the worst part is that I feel soooo bad, cause I already have a boyfriend and he's the sweetest and hottest guy ever, but he's so far away..........I know that's not an excuse to crush on other guys but I just can't help it!!! I didn't ask for this stupid crush, damnit!!! But at least he's cool with it since he knows how easily I crush on other guys and that it doesn't really mean anything cause it's always just a stupid phase that will fade again...and this crush better too...I'm starting worry though, cause it feels different this time.

1. Okay, I better stop whining now...I must sound sooo girly here but I'm going completely nuts here...
2. And even if I love living so close to him and can't stop thinking for more 'excuses' to spend some more time with him, part of me feels totally homesick too on top of that...
3. BUT on a more funny note to stop with all that whining; I had a great time at the movies Friday night with him and last night we went to another friends' apartment and had a nice poker night AND while we did the others made some funny gay jokes about us...it's the second time now they did that. LOL I wish.

@ Danny: Ohh yes I know what it feels like, to be literally sooo close to a crush, and yet there's still that distance. I hope you can at least enjoy the good parts about a crush, not only the bad ones.. So hopefully you can get over him . And that sucks you're homesick



1. Ahh, what a night last night! LOL
2. Had suuuuuuch an amazing time. Then we wanted to go home at 4am, but we had a flat tire!
3. Took us 'til almost 6am when we could finally head home... But still had a gooooood weekend and I so needed that A little lack of sleep now though, but going outside again to rest cuz it's actually a warm day! Hasnt happened in weeks

@Eve
Thanks. And yep, it's just horrible, isn't it? Especially when they're already taken...and you know there is no chance in hell that they feel the same or might be gay even...duh.
But yep, I guess I'm enjoying the good parts too...as long as I can see him every day at the moment day and spend some time with him and especially alone time with him. And see his smile. But yep, hopefully I can get over him...it would be so much better to be just friends and I really wanna be his best friend here...but I'm jealous mostly in that sense...cause when we're not alone he mostly talks to the others...simply because they have more to talk about...which is stupid of me to get jealous about, but I just can't help it...I just wish I had more to say sometimes, but I just don't know. When we're alone it's easier...meh...I still like spending time with the others of course too, they're really cool too, but I just always hate being the silent one in the round so much...duh.

1. Hehe, glad Eve had a great night last night too! I really needed that too! We need to have another poker night again as soon as possible, maybe even at my place.
2. And YAY I asked Ove (the guy I have a crush on) if he wants to watch something with me later tonight and he said he would love to. Can't wait! Yesterday we watched Community together...I just spontaneously asked him. At first I started alone, but couldn't stop thinking of him cause I was so impatient to see him again and then I remembered he also loved Community so I just used that as another excuse to see him. But I would have stopped by at his place at last after watching Community anyways, but this way I could spend even more time with him.
3. I'm going outside soon too. I really need to take a walk and clear my head. I'm gonna take a look at the house my grandparents used to live in and then go to the beach for a walk. It's close by to their old house and I always loved walking there. Probably gonna take some photos too!

Ooooops, sorry...wrote way too much again.

@ Dan: Lol yep, long post again, but I always read them! Wonder how it's going with your crush, we should talk again soon.

1. Muahah today and tomorrow it's like 20-21° Celsius outside... Even warmer than the sucky weather we had in August
2. Not complaining though, but the weather is a bit fucked up it seems
3. My classes so far are mostly interesting, but I feel like they're gonna be hard! And lots of work, too..

@Eve
Hahaha, cool that you're still always reading them. I would do the same. And yeah, I already told you but I think I'm really over my crush now...at least I don't feel obsessed anymore...but he's still cute. And of course I still like him a lot as a friend, but that's about it. I'm even more over him now than the last time we talked I think...in fact I even set my eyes on someone else now...aaaaannnnd *drum roll* it's a girl this time....mwahahaha, who would have thought. That girl totally looks like Lucy Hale!!! I told some of my classmates and they agree! I really need to show you a photo of her some time, but I only found one so far and she looks totally different on it. Mwahaha, but the guys know I kinda like her, so one of them keeps calling her my little girlfriend (she's just tiny as Lucy Hale and aaaalmost as cute ).
So yeah, I have lots of new things to tell, we definitely need to talk again soon!

1. Totally agree, I feel the same about my classes...
2. Had an awesome fun night with two of my classmates yesterday (and nope my former crush wasn't one of them. )
3. We had lots to drink (yep, drank a little more beer than usual this time ) and talked about girls and porn but also music, tv shows and anime and even watched the first Digimon ep. And later on I showed them the awesome blow job scene on Nip/Tuck. LMAO That was soooo awesome! Mwahahaa, I think they would be completely in shock if I should ever tell them I'm actually gay...or bi...didn't feel that gay yesterday. Even though I was almost about to add little gay comments in between from time to time.

Okayyyy, long post again...enjoy reading.

@ Dan: Wow, we definitelly need to talk! But niiiice, Lucy Hale is gorgeous, I wanna see a photo of this girl! If she even gets you that crazy I'm really curious to see her lol.

1. I noticed a cute girl in a few of my classes last week and saw her again today. I ran into her in the restrooms and I think I was kinda staring (not on purpose ) and she smiled at me, woop
2. I'm also having fun at school Me & my best friend there have the weirdest conversations sometimes. Like during lunch yesterday, two of our guy friends were just looking at us "wow I"ve never heard a conversation like that"
3. The atmosphere in our dance group is a little off again though, meh... we always have these times when we get along sooo well and then it's just awesome, but lately it gets followed by bad times too Oh well, hope it passes soon.

@Dan: Lucy Hale is sooooo gorgeous!!! I wanna see a pic too!! Does she tingles for you too?

@Eve: aren't you going to make a move?

1. I GOT MY DRIVING LICENCEEEEEEEE

2. I already made a quite long trip, me driving: I went to coruña on sunday, which is 80 kms far from here!

3. Juan yelled at me during the trip

@Eve - Aww, you should totally pursue her in the non-creepy way!

@Diana - CONGRATS!! You're ahead of me.

Still really pissed off and have barely been able to do work all day because of it. Here goes the rant:

1. Was not able to make a film in my Art and Meditation class like I originally thought. Couldn't get the materials/camera, etc. So in place of that my professor wants me to write a 40 page paper on disability and spirituality. That's practically a freakin' THESIS!!
2. I can't drop the class, so the best I can do for now is I'm taking it Pass/Not Pass, so it won't affect my GPA. I'm already assuming I'll get a Not Pass. I just don't see how I can do 40 pages!! It's a class for my minor, but I actually found another class that I could take in place of it that would totally count for my minor, so I changed my schedule. I talked to my friends who are English majors and they've never even done that! Unless they're doing an HONORS thesis!!
3. Bottom line is I'm not even taking any film classes next semester, which will be SO weird! Just a class I need to fill a different requirement, a disability memoir class for my minor and Spanish. Film electives will have to wait til next Fall. Good news is I can do this and still finish in Fall 2011 while graduating/"walking" in commencement in May 2011, so it won't mess me up THAT much.

and cuz I feel like it....

4. It's also amazingly difficult to find info on disability and spirituality. Any kind of spirituality even. So I found a really good article on identity, meditation and disability that focused on Zen Buddhism and made a 5 page paper out of that article. Also turned in something for a presentation (a bibliography) on yoga and disability, but that isn't half as much work as the 5-6 art projects the art students in my class have already done.

That sucks, Lara!!
As it doesn't affect your grades, you could get a No pass , but I'm pretty sure you are so able to make the 40 pages work with your eyes closed

1. I know it sounds so vain, but I am obsessed with clothings these days.

2. I know it sounds creepy but I'm totally obsessed with Lauren Conrad's style book these days.

3. Keeping myself obsessed keeps me apart from thinking about my real problems.

@ Lara: Dude, 40 pages is just insane! I couldn't do that either on such short notice! Hope you can still pass, and if not, at least it won't mess up your future schedule too much...

and LOL, I probably won't do anything about that girl, I'm too shy.


1. I am so incredibly pissed off with someone in my life right now. I have been for 2 weeks but now she's just gone completely over the top! I can't believe I once considered her a friend, what a freaking backstabber and bitch and.... Luckily I know a few people who completely feel the same & agree with me.

2. One of these days this situation is gonna blow up, and it won't be pretty!!!

3. At least last night on MSN I talked to those others about it for a few hours, man I was raaaaaging! So I actually feel much better now after all the venting and gossiping about her!


Oh and I can't even begin to explain the situation cuz THAT would easily take up 40 pages!!

Wow!!!
Weird seeing you raging, Eve! Makes me wonder what could happen to you to make you that mad!
I can get how you feel though, almost all my best friends backstabbed me once or even twice and it is so painful, specially after a couple of bad experiences.
Sometimes (most of times) indiference is the best weapon to fight that people

1. Yesterday I drove to Coruña again
2. Juan yelled again
3. We lost 15 fishes this weekend

@ Di: Hmm yeah, she was never my best friend or anything, but still. She's just been treating me and some other people crappy lately, and then I found out what she's been saying about us. You don't say things like that about people you call "friends". And she's completely become this egocentric person who only talks about herself and won't EVER admit she's wrong (maybe she was always like that and I just recently realized it?). Sooo yeah, that's that in a nutshell.

But right now I'm kinda in the indifference stage though, thank God!
I'm done being angry


1. Had a lovely time shopping today with my mom and it was such a beautiful autumn-day!
2. I drove to Antwerp on Friday with my instructor
3. Today I went to the city Hall to go get my driver's permit so I can drive whenever I want and practice! Then I'll do my exam in a few months.